I’m taking a break from my normal long-windedness 🙂 and blogging this year’s Christmas through pictures! Enjoy!
























I’m taking a break from my normal long-windedness 🙂 and blogging this year’s Christmas through pictures! Enjoy!
























It’s incredibly hard to believe that our baby girl turned THREE this year!! Here are the highlights from her birthday and birthday party…





She went to gymnastics and then Grandma, Grandpa, Selah and I went to go pick out a cupcake from a bakery. For weeks I had been asking her what she wanted for her birthday, and her ONLY response was, “A cupcake.” I tried to tell her that I was already making cupcakes for her birthday party, but she could think of nothing else she wanted. The day before her birthday, she reminded me that she would like a cupcake for her birthday. I reminded her we would have one on her birthday party day a few days later. She looked at me as if I had not heard the 1 million times that she told me she wanted a cupcake for her birthday and almost burst into tears. So :). We decided to let her pick out a special cupcake for her actual birthday.
After naptime, she got to go into the basement and see her special gift picked out and put up by her Daddy…he added a SWING to her beloved birthday present from last year–the gym in our basement.





HER BIRTHDAY PARTY:
Selah is our super tactile child. She LOVES playing in rice and sand and squishing play dough between her fingers. So we decided to party hard for her 3rd with play dough, her favorite friends, and her grandparents.
Our most wonderful Selah Bean is turning three!
She’s our silly, hilarious, playful one (as you know),
To you, her favorites, she asks: “Will you celebrate with me?!”
Join us for a party with games and PLAY DOUGH!!









The first challenge was to create a cupcake that Selah would like to eat for her birthday.





The next challenge was to create a playdough version of Selah. Here’s what we got:



The kids played with play dough for a little while longer until it was time for cake!





If you’ve made it this far :), here are some extra special birthday bonuses…

And THIS is a picture of ME when I turned 3, alongside of Selah on her birthday. My mom made this sweet Care Bear for me for my third birthday, and here is Selah with it as well!!

Happy Birthday, our darling won-dough-ful Selah!!!

Our darling little girl is growing up so quickly before our eyes, and she brings an exceeding amount of joy into our home every day. Selah lives life as if it were a musical–and we adore it!! She literally sings her way through life…she sings throughout the day, sings herself to sleep, and wakes up with a new song on her tongue every morning.
Here’s a video of one of her latest songs:
It is so easy to see her mother’s heart burst out of her every move…she is constantly so eager to take care of everyone around her and serve every chance she gets.


And that heart does not exclude her babies and stuffed animals! It is not rare for us all to be playing together and for Selah to jump up in the middle of our playtime and exclaim, “I hear my baby crying upstairs! I’ll go get her and bring her down!” She is the epitome of sweet and kind and loving. And although she has definitely learned how to push her brother’s buttons this year :), most of what comes out of her heart is genuine love.
A few months ago, I overheard this conversation:
Selah, as she takes Elliott’s pencil and sits down: “Elliott, I need to use your pencil.”
Elliott: “But Selah, that’s MY pencil.”
Selah, in the sweetest, most genuinely convincing voice: “Yes, I’m SHARING it with you!”
Elliott: “Oh! Thank you, Selah! Thank you for sharing it with me!”
Selah: “You’re welcome, Elliott!”
It’s hard to articulate the depths of her heart, but this conversation was so typical of her…she was truly not manipulating him, but she just genuinely believes that she was giving Elliott a gift by letting HIM share with HER!
As she approached her third birthday, any time it would come up in conversation and someone would ask her old she was turning, she would respond, “Three…THEN FOUR!!” I think she is determined to catch up to her big brother! 🙂
She continues to be our amazing gymnast.

She is truly talented and it is such a joy to watch her doing something she loves. We did the “Mommy and me” gymnastics class last year, and a couple of weeks before she turned 3, she started the 3-4 year olds class, which is a class without her Mama!! (Granted, I do sit right outside where she can see me and watch her through the window…baby steps for both of us!) I talked to her about it ahead of time, wondering how she would do without me (and let’s be real–how I would do without her!!!) and she said she was excited to do it. The morning of her first class, however, as we were getting her into her leotard, she said to me with a voice that quivered more with each word: “Mom? I was just thinking that I actually want you to come into my class with me…” and then she erupted in tears. My heart broke and I held her as she sobbed…Elliott and I comforted her and prayed with her and he gave her advice on what it is like to go into a class without me. It was precious. Sure enough, when I walked her into her class a couple hours later, she let go of my hand and waved goodbye to me with no problem. It has been so incredibly fun to watch her thrive!!




She got her first haircut this year and mastered potty training.
She is wild and messy and silly and free and creative and and hilarious and we adore every part of how God created our little girl!!! Enjoy a snapshot of her year below!
Selah takes artistic license when it comes to doing anything…eating dinner, crafting, writing her name…











Selah continues to have a love-hate relationship with animals of all kinds. She screams in absolute horror if our friends’ cat even takes a step into a room that she is in, but then she can be in a pen filled with Alpacas and literally chase after them yelling, “Here, alpaca! Here, alpaca!”














Our big 4 year old started Pre-K this month! He is going to a very small little preschool that we just love so far. The director is wonderful, the teachers are incredibly loving and…his good buddy Malachi is in his class!! How could it get any better? 🙂 This preschool as the option of letting the kids stay an extra 45 minutes afterwards to eat lunch. I was not even thinking about that as an option but when Elliott found out about it he begged me to let him stay. So…alas…I let him stay for lunch on the first day (sniff, sniff…) And as you can see below, that is one of his top three favorite things about school!
Some stats:
Age: Almost 4 1/2
Height: 44 1/2 inches
Shoe size: 12
Clothing size: 5T and 6
Loves: CRAFTING. Oh my, how this child loves to craft. He could literally sit and craft all day (and often does!) He loves to write letters to people and make cards and pictures for others. He also still LOVES to read and build.
When he grows up he wants to be: “A space man and a firefighter.”
Favorite part of Pre-K so far: “Eating snack and eating lunch.” When I asked if there was anything else he said, “I have one more thing…that Brooklyn is there!” and then he got a huge smile on his face, turned beet red, and ran away… haha!! 🙂







Meanwhile, back at the ranch…us girls went and got coffee and hot chocolate at our favorite little local coffee shop…and then went to the park, of course!


We went home, ate lunch, and raced back to pick up Elliott, whom we missed so much!

All in all, it was a great first day and a successful first week of school!

I often tell Brian that I wish I could bottle Selah up to remember her like this forever…Two is seriously my favorite age and she is so articulate and hilarious that she keeps me laughing all day long. Oh, the STORIES that she comes up with…they are incredible. This girl’s imagination is VIVID and she always has a story to tell about everything.
She also, however, has some stage fright. 🙂 So anytime I pull out my phone to take her picture or record her, she stops acting like her normal self but then wants to see what I’ve recorded! I have been trying so hard to get her on video without her knowing because I want to capture the essence of HER…and, folks, I did it :). She had been talking to me already for several minutes and I somehow casually placed my phone on my leg and pushed record without her knowing…until the end, of course. This video is CLASSIC Selah…first of all, she’s wearing her shirt backwards because when she dresses herself in the mornings she usually takes some artistic license with how her clothes should be worn. Today, her shirt was backwards and it was very intentional. (You all just wait for that to become a trend!) And her backwards shirt is covered in watermelon juice because…because she’s the second child :). Her hair’s a disaster because it’s after her nap and well, seriously…this is classic Selah. Feel free to watch below to catch a glimpse of our imaginative little girl…and bonus points if you can catch everything she’s saying!

Well, it happened to be SNOWING in MAY on the day of Elliott’s very last day of preschool (shout out to Colorado!). So, if you can get past the terrible picture quality of the last day {indoor} photos taken with my phone, you can see the changes in our big man and his little sister in just one school year…


I know this is the weirdest thing on the planet to blog about but Selah makes everything SO hilarious that I want to document this little milestone. AND, I’m certain she will thank me in 20 years…right?!! 🙂
Thanks to Selah, potty training her was an experience that had me in stitches throughout the entire process. I’m a big fan of WAITING to potty train, mostly because…here’s a little secret about me: I love diapers. And I mean, LOVE them. I think they are incredibly convenient and they just truly don’t bother me. Selah had been showing signs of being ready to potty training since long before she was 2 (in fact, a few days before her 2nd birthday she asked if she could sit on the potty and she got out both her pee and her poop!) So I thought I would have a self-trainer on my hands. Well, she didn’t self train but just picked and chose the days and times that she wanted to use the potty. I tried VERY half-heartedly a couple of times to actual train her, but one puddle on the floor was enough to send me back to buying stock in diapers. Sure enough, around 2 1/2, she started using the potty very regularly (on her terms). One evening during dinner Elliott went to the bathroom and then she jumped out of her seat and said, “Can I go potty?!” I said, “Be my guest…” and so she went upstairs to the available potty by herself, took off her diaper by herself, and went to the bathroom. It was that day that I realized I needed to just bite the bullet and train the girl.
I set up a little incentive…7 purple papers that led to a baby doll stroller which she really wanted.

Every time she went pee she got to put a little sticker in the pee square and every time she went poop she got to put a sticker in the poop square. Like I said, she was really good at going when she wanted to, but we had to get her going all the time. So if she went a full day without an accident she got to glue her paper up on a purple square.

When all the squares were filled up she got to go pick out a stroller!
Here was thing about her going potty. Somehow, she would manage to not only get pee in the potty, but also all over the floor of the entire bathroom, the seat, and the back of the toilet. I’ve never seen anything like it, and it would make me laugh so hard (Brian didn’t quite feel the same way, HA!!). I mean, seriously though…that requires talent! How is that even possible?!!
It took me a few days of that to realize that as soon as she would start to go pee, she would want to watch it come out so she would stand up mid-stream…hence, the pee flood.
Speaking of which, every time she would go to sit on the potty she would beg me to let her pee standing up (like her big brother). And when I would tell her, “no…” and that “ladies sit to go to the bathroom”, she would break down into a puddle of tears.
So, after teaching her to remain seated for the entire performance (have you ever seen that sign in a public restroom?) I went in one day to find ALL of the pee…INSIDE the toilet! THAT was a big day! I began to praise her and she enthusiastically interjected: “I got pee on the floor and the seat but I just wiped it all up!” She has left the potty SPOTLESS ever since that day.
She has preferred (and been much more successful) going to the bathroom alone, which is why I haven’t been in there to monitor the pee antics.

Here are a few quotes that kept me laughing throughout the entire process:
*After pooping one day, she stuck her head in the potty, examining her poops, and said: “OH!! One is a turtle and one is a monkey climbing up a tree!”
*Another poop experience: One of her poops was very tiny and round. She looked in and said, “OH!! A blueberry!! I want a blueberry!! Can I eat a blueberry??”
*Calling to me from the bathroom: “Mommy! The poops got ON the potty!!” I went into the bathroom to find her standing there studying the toilet and the poop that was smeared on the seat. There was also, incidentally, NO poop actually in the potty. I said, “Hmmm, how did you get poops ON the potty, but not IN the potty? Where are the poops??” Selah, wrinkled her eyebrows, peered into the toilet and said with utmost compassion, “Them prolly (probably) asleep in the hay…” (I then proceeded to wipe her and found said poops hanging out of her bottom…mystery solved!)
*One day after pooping she (again, studying her poop) says, “Oooooh!! A carrot!!” “Well, actually that’s a red pepper,” I replied. She responds, “Oooooh!! A red pepper!! Why a red pepper??? {pause, as she proceeds to answer her own question} That’s because the poops are hungy (hungry) so they eat the red pepper.”
*”Look!! That’s a silly poop!” In a sing-song voice she continues, “It goes, ‘I can DANCE! I can DANCE!!! I can DAAANCE!!!’ That’s silly…silly poop that can dance!!”
We also had several incidents in public, like the time I was so focused on making sure her hands were washed that I forgot to remind her to pull up her panties. So she waddled out of the public bathroom in her dress with her underwear around her cowgirl boots! It’s like the Selah version of tucking your skirt into your underwear :). She just somehow never ceased to make potty training funny!!
So…several pee floods, many, many poop stories, and tons of laughs later, we had a potty trained little girl!

We all ventured to the store so she could pick out her stroller…





We are so proud of our little girl!!

Towards the beginning of January, Elliott suddenly said to me, “Mommy, I would like an animal birthday party.” I hadn’t talked to him about a party theme, but I will confess that I already had his entire birthday planned out in my head–with a different theme! I’m not used to my kids being able to articulate their desires like this :). So, I’ll admit–it took me a couple days to be inspired, but thanks to some help by Pinterest, I was fully hooked in no time. And it was SO MUCH FUN to do something that was initiated by Elliott!
When I asked Elliott what was most important to him with the animal birthday party, he said, “I want REAL LIVE ANIMALS there!!!!”
The hilarious part about that, is that Elliott is TERRIFIED of animals. Seriously. He’s always been utterly fascinated by them, but he doesn’t want to be anywhere near them. Selah has acquired the same fear. We’ve definitely had some breakthrough over the years, but both of them are still terrified.
Going to the zoo itself just wasn’t practical this year, so we decided to have the zoo come to us! I pressed and prodded Elliott, reminding him that he’s often “a little” scared when he’s near animals, but he insisted that he wanted to see real live animals. When we got everything arranged and I told them we would have “REAL, LIVE animals” coming to our house, he was so excited. And when I asked him what type of animal he would really like to see, he boldly exclaimed, “A LION!!!!!” 🙂
So…party preparations began a few weeks prior to his birthday, because the kids and I made all the decorations. Oh my, it was SO.MUCH.FUN preparing together! Elliott L-O-V-E-S crafting and so it was incredibly special for him (and Selah) to be an integral part of the decorating. It was so awesome spending a few weeks making animal crafts and for the kids to watch our home slowly transform into a little jungle…
The first thing we made were my absolute FAVORITE decorations…I can’t get over how adorable these turned out. Both of the kids made each type of animal, so we had two of each kind–one big and one little. I just cut a Trader Joe’s bag into rectangles, and they stamped their hands right on each one! Then I added the details.

We printed off pictures of animals and found their heights, and put them up next to our growth chart so the kids could see which animal they were as tall as. Then, we decided to turn the growth chart into a tree! The kids cut out most of these leaves by themselves, fringes and all, and then put their thumbprints on them to make a few different types of bugs crawling through the trees!


I cut out this grass, but Elliott drew all of these little bugs! Aren’t they adorable!?!!








Right after we decided to do an animal birthday party, I found Elliott in his room during quiet rest time making the coolest cage out of his straw builder things (or whatever they’re called, ha!) I said, “Hey! Should we make this into a zoo cage for all of your stuffed animals?!” He loved the idea, and he and Selah went to work the rest of the afternoon building a cage. Then, he painted this sign all by himself!!! (I did help him with apostrophe…)



The day of the party…



All of his other friends arrived, and they started off by doing the thing that Elliott loves–crafting :). They each had a paper bag set out for them and they got to decorate it using animal stamps and stickers.

Then, they got to use they same supplies to decorate the covers for their very own binoculars. While the adults assembled binoculars, the kids got to make these cool snakes out of pipe cleaners and pony beads…again, one of Elliott’s FAVORITE crafting supplies.

And THEN it was time to hunt for animals using their binoculars! Elliott and Selah hid tiny plastic animals all over our living room and all the kids set out to hunt for them.



Then we went downstairs for a little “pin-the-tail-on-the-giraffe”…while half the kids were playing the game, the other half pretended to be monkeys and swung around on our gynamstics equipment in the basement!




Then, it was time for lunch! Highlights included: pigs in a blanket, zebra popcorn, lion veggies, goldfish crackers, animal crackers, penguin gummies, mice-infested meat and cheese tray and meatballs :).
After these wild party animals had their fill, there was a knock at the door…the REAL LIVE ANIMALS had arrived!!!




Next up was a real live SNAKE!!



The kids all got the opportunity to touch each animal and it was such a fun experience!! Elliott was FASCINATED with the animals and couldn’t stop talking about them…he just still didn’t really want to be near them…as I suspected :).
After the animals left, we had cake and opened presents!!








There I was…on the bathroom floor…desperate for my son’s heart to change.
We had just had 20 minutes that made me want to clench my fists and jump up and down and throw an honest-to-goodness 2 year old tantrum. I have been praying more than ever lately for my children to have wisdom (more on that one day soon), because the amount of foolishness that has been prevalent in our home by my dear 3 year old has been…what can I say…MIND-BOGGLING.
Tonight, after pulling one of his routine foolish antics, I knelt down in front of him as he attempted to put his poops in the potty. Picture it: me, kneeling on our, ahem, “well-loved,” bathroom floor while my strained-face pooping 3 year old looked at me with red eyes. “Buddy…” I pleaded, tears in my own eyes. “Buddy…why, oh WHY, are you being so foolish?”
We’ve just been over this particular scenario 41 billion trillion quadrillion times, and sometimes–I will be honest–I resort to this…kneeling on a bathroom floor and pleading with my pooping child. I’m still not sure if that’s better or worse than throwing a tantrum. I’ve been in Proverbs a lot lately, and you just can’t read Proverbs without begging God to save you and your children from the folly of foolishness. You can’t read Proverbs without begging God to soften your heart and your children’s hearts to love wisdom and not despise it. You can’t read Proverbs without begging God to keep you and your children from returning to your/their own vomit. Isn’t it true?
We had just come from our church’s little community group, where at some point we ended up discussing how when children are asked why their parents love them, they usually respond with works-based answers, such as, “Because I’m good at art” or “Because I obey” or things of the sort. This, of course, is so opposed to the heart of the gospel, which relieves us from the burden of works-based righteousness. We are made righteous because of who Jesus is, and nothing of ourselves. I had Ephesians 2:8 (“For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith, and this not from ourselves–it is a gift from God”) memorized as a child, but I did not truly understand the essence of this verse and the gospel until I was an adult. And it is still a battle each day to remember and understand and believe.
Oh, how I long for my kids to know God’s love for them.
Oh, oh, oh…oh, I long for my kids to understand that God’s love is unconditional. That we love because He first loved us. That we cannot attain His favor or love by our works, but only because of Jesus.
I wrestle with this truth and understanding in my own life, but I fight hard each day to understand it because a.) my soul needs to understand it and b.) I can’t teach them what I don’t understand.
Daily, by faith, one of the ways I try to teach them the little I do understand of His love is by showing them and telling them constantly how much I love them. Simply because they are mine. Simply because they are made in God’s image. Simply because they are eternal beings that matter. To me, and to God. Oh, how I long for my kids to understand love.
So…back to community group (or “moony toop” as Selah calls it). As soon as I heard that question being discussed, I made a mental note to talk to the kids about works-based righteousness. Though we talk about the gospel frequently, I wanted to start directly teaching them about unconditional love. Just then, Brian leaned over and whispered, “We’ve got to ask our kids that question when we get home.” We were thinking the same thing. We had never thought to ask them such a question and we really had no idea how they would answer.
Which brings us…home. Remember where we started? Me, kneeling on the bathroom floor?
I put Selah to bed with such an anxiety in my spirit over the state of my son’s foolish heart. I was talking to Selah, telling her the gospel once again and reminding her why we can forgive our friend who had hurt her that night–only because of Jesus. Only because Jesus forgave us first. Only because Jesus forgave us while we were still sinners. And all in the back of my head I’m begging the Lord to change my son’s heart to be one who loves wisdom and not folly.
I shut Selah’s door, and wanted to cry. But then I heard Brian’s voice…
“Mommy…? Will you come here for a minute? Elliott has something to tell you…”
I braced myself for the somewhat typical half-hearted apology from Elliott, and begged the Lord to give me the grace to truly forgive him and truly have hope for his soul. But instead…I got this:
“My son, tell Mommy why Daddy and Mommy love you.”
Elliott responded with a big smile on his face, “Because Jesus said, ‘Love one another.’ John 15:12.”
I was a little confused…I figured Brian must have done a little lesson on the question we had wanted to ask him, in light of his disobedience. I thought it was sort of an odd way to teach Elliott the “answer” to that question, but I was just trying to go with it…until Brian relayed the whole story to me, with our sweet Elliott in his arms.
“I asked Elliott why Mommy and Daddy love him, and he told me, ‘Because God tells us to.’ I asked if he could think of anything else…any other reasons why we love him. And he responded by saying, ‘Jesus said, ‘Love one another.’ John 15:12′.”
Mind boggled to mind BLOWN.
I broke down into a puddle of tears. I think Elliott’s starting to recognize my “good crying” (ha!) because he just beamed ear-to-ear with pride as my lip quivered and the tears flowed down my face.
Our 3 year old son responded to the question of why we love him with a Scripture. With a Scripture about the fact that our love comes from God. And, for full disclosure here: I haven’t taught him that Scripture. It was a verse he memorized at preschool.
And so without my help, or instruction, the Holy Spirit has been working in his heart on this concept…that love comes from God. That we love because God tells us to. (Remember my revelation that God doesn’t tell us our parenting techniques will not come back void, but that THE WORD will not come back void? What a sweet and gentle reminder from the Lord on a night that my faith had dwindled…)
Oh, there is still, obviously, so much to learn and so much to teach. But the fact that our son has grasped the idea that we love him because of God is the nugget of grace and hope I needed tonight.
Fellow mamas, let’s teach the Word diligently and faithfully in our homes, pray like crazy as we do, and trust that God will plant the truths in our children’s souls.
Lord, I’m praying for my friends tonight, and I’m praying especially for all the mommies out there who, like me, struggle to understand that your love is unconditional. Teach us, Lord. Show us, Lord. Help us understand the gospel and give us the grace and perseverance to teach our children the gospel. Lord, help us understand your love so that we can love our kids unconditionally. Lord, strengthen our weary souls, as we love and pour out and teach and train tirelessly and endlessly…and teach us how to do it in your strength. Teach us how to pray. Amen.

I will be honest, I wasn’t sure this day would actually ever come…
Our sweet little girl has taken after her mother, who didn’t have hair for a very, very long time. I had put away her baby book, expecting to pull it out in a few years again to record her “first hair cut” moment…you know, when she actually would have some hair.
But then…a couple of months ago, Brian said to me, “Hey…do we need to do anything with Selah’s hair? It’s looking pretty…scraggly….”
“Of course we don’t,” I immediately answered. “It is growing out and we will not cut a single hair.”
Now, none of my (in-town) friends have little girls Selah’s age, and so–I’ll be honest–I don’t have much help when it comes to the areas that I’m not so “natural” at…and hair is one of those areas. Selah’s been going to a gymnastics class since September and is finally gaining some little girlfriends. One week, one of the moms was talking about how she had to cut her little girl’s hair many times in order to “get it to grow in fuller and faster.” I asked her what she meant by that, and another mom chimed in saying, “Oh, yes. My girls, too…you have to trim it to get it to grow.” I asked a couple other friends who have girls and everyone agreed–“you’ve got to trim it to get it to grow.”
Let me just say, I still don’t really think I believe it 🙂 but after I thought about it for a while, Selah’s hair totally started to drive me crazy, and I realized they were right–it needed to be cut. At least a bob would be more feminine than the “wild mullet look.” So…with bated breath I broke the news to Brian and we got her in as quickly as I could make an appointment.
Here are some BEFORE pictures:



When I asked her if she would like to get her hair cut, she got SO excited and said, “Yeah!! I sit in the car like Elliott!!” We go to a kid’s place for Elliott that has toys and little cars for the boys (or girls!) to sit in. He’s long outgrown the cars, and in fact, I think she only saw him in one once, but that’s still what sticks out in her mind. So I was wondering if she would choose a car, but she was excited to sit in the big chair with the princess mirror….









I couldn’t get a good “after” picture at the place because as SOON as the lady put her hair up and said she was all done, Selah JUMPED out of the chair so she could go play with the toys.

Some AFTER pictures:
Oooohhhh, the difficulties of getting this girl to smile on demand! “Selah, please look just look at me REAL QUICKLY and smile!!”







Her hair is still too thin and short for a true bob, but hopefully now that it’s cut it will “grow in fuller and faster” like everyone keeps saying it will. I’ll believe it when I see it :). In the meantime, she’s perfectly adorable and we love her!!!!!


